Video Projection on Sand. 3 min loop.
Stuck in some sort of limbo while the frame fills with sand, I am endlessly cleaning out the crotch of my childhood bathing suit... An early life symbolic burden of the weight and attention placed on the female reproductive organ. Endlessly cleaning in attempt to erase any signs of shame affiliated with an "un-clean" vagina.
Shot with a GoPro over my heart on the coast of Cape Cod, where I spent half my life, I attempt to slow down the world and connect with the earth as part my my recovery after a nervous breakdown threatened my life.
Part of the series entitled "Crocodile Tears", this video re-enacts a dream I had when I was a tween in anticipation of my first period. All at once, excited and repulsed by womanhood, this video aims to humorously inflict discomfort on the viewer, in a similar way that women are forced fed their own femininity.